Although the fig tree shall not blossom, neither shall fruit be in the vines; the labour of the olive shall fail, and the fields shall yield no meat; the flock shall be cut off from the fold, and there shall be no herd in the stalls:Yet I will rejoice in the LORD, I will joy in the God of my salvation.
Yet was birthed out of the heartache of my infertility struggle, late one night after the phone call telling us that our second (and final) IVF attempt had not resulted in a pregnancy.
I was devastated and angry, hurt that God who claimed to love me could sit so far away and watch me hurt.
And then He whispered "Yet I will rejoice" to me and I realized that while I did not understand what was happening or why, I had a choice about how I would react.
Over the next weeks and months God continued to put it on my heart to reach out and help other women who were struggling as I did. Lonely. Hurt. Confused.
And so slowly this blog has taken shape over months of prayers, conversations and lessons learned and taught.
Infertility isn't talked about. Few people want to open up and tell others what they are going through. It's raw. It's shame filled (though it shouldn't be). It HURTS.
So this blog is about what it's like to be in that place that no one talks about, of hurts and disappointments and angers and jealousy and rage. Of unexpected joys, of what to do when all you want to do is hurt. And it's about what happens when you come to the other side of that hurt filled place and learn to sit holding hurt and joy together in the same moment.
This blog is the voice for others who don't know how or aren't yet able to talk about what they need as they endure.
This blog is for the friends and family members who desperately want to understand what their loved one is going through and yet can't.
This blog is for everyone who struggles on this road, regardless of how they got here or where they end up.
This blog is for YOU, that you may find the strength no matter what your pain is to know that it is possible to stand in agony and YET rejoice.